Thursday, January 24, 2008
♥ RESULTS.. haiz..
after deducting bonus points
L1R5 - 16
L1R4 - 12
cried my heart out.. wasnt expecting this..
and, watever i dreamt of bout mr said hinting to me, took place today..
exactly the same..
i cried and cried and cried..
attracted ms cheng's and mrs chua's attention..
they said my results was good..
but wasnt good enuf for me..
i am totally disappointed..
yes, after that i started to laugh and joke..
but nobody knows how crashed i felt inside..
i felt like a huge weight is on me..
i felt stupid, hopeless, useless..
i hid all those sadness behind my laughter..
nobody can understand how i felt inside..
i dont even want to watch the news on tv bout the o level results..
i need a hug..
i seriously need one..
even though my parents said they are happy, i noe they are slightly disappointed that i cnt qualify for a good JC..
i am sorry mama and baba..
i dun want tings to turn out this way..
but thanks for showing that u are very proud of me even though there is nothing to be proud of..
i am very sorry..
im feeling down.. i am crying while blogging..
that is how sad im feeling..
i need something to take my mind off these results tingy..
thats the reason im going for training tmr..
thanks to these special ppl who cheered me up..(its gonna be a long list)
-aminah
-atikah
-sakinah
-aisyah
-mardiana
-dinah and mom
-fiza
-dahlia
-nani
-mrs chua
-mr said
-mr neo
-and my aunts and uncles
-not to forget my dearest kakak and parents
im trying very hard to feel happy bout my result.. but there is this nagging feeling.. that keeps reminding me bout how disappointed i am.. YA ALLAH!!! beri lah ku kekuatan untuk hadapi ni smue.. aku sepatutnye berpuas hati. tapi, aku hanye insan biase, penoh dgn kelemahan..
take care my fellow o level 07 mates.. we've done our best.. and for those hu are disappointed, ure not alone.. let's work our way to satisfaction..
i will take at least one week to recover from this ordeal.. haiz...
peace out..
L1R5 - 16
L1R4 - 12
cried my heart out.. wasnt expecting this..
and, watever i dreamt of bout mr said hinting to me, took place today..
exactly the same..
i cried and cried and cried..
attracted ms cheng's and mrs chua's attention..
they said my results was good..
but wasnt good enuf for me..
i am totally disappointed..
yes, after that i started to laugh and joke..
but nobody knows how crashed i felt inside..
i felt like a huge weight is on me..
i felt stupid, hopeless, useless..
i hid all those sadness behind my laughter..
nobody can understand how i felt inside..
i dont even want to watch the news on tv bout the o level results..
i need a hug..
i seriously need one..
even though my parents said they are happy, i noe they are slightly disappointed that i cnt qualify for a good JC..
i am sorry mama and baba..
i dun want tings to turn out this way..
but thanks for showing that u are very proud of me even though there is nothing to be proud of..
i am very sorry..
im feeling down.. i am crying while blogging..
that is how sad im feeling..
i need something to take my mind off these results tingy..
thats the reason im going for training tmr..
thanks to these special ppl who cheered me up..(its gonna be a long list)
-aminah
-atikah
-sakinah
-aisyah
-mardiana
-dinah and mom
-fiza
-dahlia
-nani
-mrs chua
-mr said
-mr neo
-and my aunts and uncles
-not to forget my dearest kakak and parents
im trying very hard to feel happy bout my result.. but there is this nagging feeling.. that keeps reminding me bout how disappointed i am.. YA ALLAH!!! beri lah ku kekuatan untuk hadapi ni smue.. aku sepatutnye berpuas hati. tapi, aku hanye insan biase, penoh dgn kelemahan..
take care my fellow o level 07 mates.. we've done our best.. and for those hu are disappointed, ure not alone.. let's work our way to satisfaction..
i will take at least one week to recover from this ordeal.. haiz...
peace out..
7:55 PM
